Lonesome

Second by second...
Beat by beat...
Wasting more seconds,
Counting more beats.

The room is cleaned. I did it all by myself; not any helping hand from my mum. Ahaaa...well, nothing to be proud of actually...Yep...nothing much to be proud of... grinned.

Mum and dad went to work. Siblings are also not around. While the pets are all having their afternoon nap. Yet my phone is still "deadly" lying on the desk(Checked. It's on. The L.E.D is still flikering)...bored.

Papers had been flipped from page to page twice...and the computer was frequently powered on and off. Browsed all my favourite pages. The messenger list was only filled with some "stranger" users (haha...I do speak to stranger sometimes). No new blog from the familiar and of coz...no blogger's or anonymous's comments for the last post-well...nothing can be commented actually. No new testimonial, no new friend's request, neither new message nor e-mail; and no new uploaded comic page from fzdm.com. ... ... ... sigh ... ... ...

I did approach some dates and buddies' activities most of the nights, in these last few weeks of the end of year 2006. Birthday parties, movies, dinners, little gatherings, a lot of mamak sessions and futsal nights. Oftenly, I've been checking up the old pals and meeting the new girls in this December. A lot of chats ... a lot of laughters...but everything still back to nil when blogging this. I still have the lonesome feel.

I'm suppose to concentrate on studies this and the coming year. To at least get to my CLP year. But I'm totally out of mood now...lost of motivation. I dunno...issit time for a relationship?. I doubt...*deeper thought* Naaaa...Not anymore commitment. Really not within my budget this year.

I have no idea what can I achieve in 2007. A lot of times have been wasted in 2006. And I'm now lost in the maze of my life, looking for my cheese.

.........Lost.........

Naaa...don't worry. Not to be paranoid to myself. It's just me being lazy. A little lonely. Just for the moment.

Ohhh...about the seconds and beats... I was trying to adjust my heartbeats to go parallel to the rhythem as the clock "TIK". Stupid isn't it? Now, can you feel my boredom and loneliness? grinned.

Another lazy Saturday.

Chill. Tomorrow is always a better day.