Narcissism

The best word of my 2006's vocabulary is...

Narcissism
-noun[c] an extreme interest in your own life and problems that prevents you from caring other people a. an extreme interest in your appearence - narcissistic/ adj: a narcissistic personality disorder - narcissist noun [c] Sentence : Narcissism is pathological and i think i've developed such narcissistic personality disorder.

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This is me...snapping a pic of my own by using the web cam.

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May Kuan taught me that this is known as "camwhore" (some blogging term or IT term). Some people-mostly the younger generations like to capture their own images by using digital camera or phone or any other available gadget. Select the best and delete the bads.

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Some says it's an act of self-loving but i think it's narcissistic.

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"Camwhore"- a hobby or an addiction? What do u think?

Lonesome

Second by second...
Beat by beat...
Wasting more seconds,
Counting more beats.

The room is cleaned. I did it all by myself; not any helping hand from my mum. Ahaaa...well, nothing to be proud of actually...Yep...nothing much to be proud of... grinned.

Mum and dad went to work. Siblings are also not around. While the pets are all having their afternoon nap. Yet my phone is still "deadly" lying on the desk(Checked. It's on. The L.E.D is still flikering)...bored.

Papers had been flipped from page to page twice...and the computer was frequently powered on and off. Browsed all my favourite pages. The messenger list was only filled with some "stranger" users (haha...I do speak to stranger sometimes). No new blog from the familiar and of coz...no blogger's or anonymous's comments for the last post-well...nothing can be commented actually. No new testimonial, no new friend's request, neither new message nor e-mail; and no new uploaded comic page from fzdm.com. ... ... ... sigh ... ... ...

I did approach some dates and buddies' activities most of the nights, in these last few weeks of the end of year 2006. Birthday parties, movies, dinners, little gatherings, a lot of mamak sessions and futsal nights. Oftenly, I've been checking up the old pals and meeting the new girls in this December. A lot of chats ... a lot of laughters...but everything still back to nil when blogging this. I still have the lonesome feel.

I'm suppose to concentrate on studies this and the coming year. To at least get to my CLP year. But I'm totally out of mood now...lost of motivation. I dunno...issit time for a relationship?. I doubt...*deeper thought* Naaaa...Not anymore commitment. Really not within my budget this year.

I have no idea what can I achieve in 2007. A lot of times have been wasted in 2006. And I'm now lost in the maze of my life, looking for my cheese.

.........Lost.........

Naaa...don't worry. Not to be paranoid to myself. It's just me being lazy. A little lonely. Just for the moment.

Ohhh...about the seconds and beats... I was trying to adjust my heartbeats to go parallel to the rhythem as the clock "TIK". Stupid isn't it? Now, can you feel my boredom and loneliness? grinned.

Another lazy Saturday.

Chill. Tomorrow is always a better day.

Forgiveness

Before year 2006 being counted out,
I've learned to forgive myself...

I've forgiven my greed
I've forgiven my laziness
and I forgave the stubborn me

Then I learn to forgive the others...

I forgive those who cheated me (if there is)
I forgive those who injured me during futsal matches
and I forgive the good souls who have apologised

Lastly, I ask for forgiveness ...

Dear beloved reader(s), my sincere apology to you.
Please forgive the lazy me for not updating my blog regularly,
and thank you for not giving up this snail blog.



p/s: Wow!!! I feel so great to forgive a person... especially myself.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

Question 1

When I was sitting under a tree, I asked myself..

Q: What is my speciality???

Dear friends, what's yours???

*Congratulation to you, if you think that you have one or more.*